Failure, Father

"Father...
I'm afraid I may have to die tonight.
I've tried to be patient. I've tried to wait.
But I have to know.
How father?
How do I do it?
What do I use...to make them afraid?
...yes, father. I have everything but patience.
I'd rather die...than wait...another hour.
I have waited eighteen years...
Since the man with frightened, hollow eyes and a voice like glass being crushed...
Since all sense left my life."